Saturday, June 1, 2013

Jacob Reed Bergendorf



40 Weeks
  Saturday, June 1st, 2013. I woke up bright and early at 5:45 am. We had to be to the hospital by 7:00 am and I wanted to get a nice shower in (because I knew it would be awhile since I would shower again) before we went. Right before we left I asked Scott for a blessing. In that blessing I was told we had made the right decisions and that gave me a lot of peace. On our way to the hospital I felt pretty anxious. It was weird to just be going in to have a baby. As we walked up casually to the hospital doors I turned to Scott and told him I had imagined this walk being a lot more rushed and panicked and not so calm. I guess things don’t always turn out as planned. :) We got all checked in and before I knew it I was in a hospital gown in bed hooked up to an IV and the machines to monitor the baby and my contractions. Shortly after this the nurse came in to tell me the doctor, Doctor Matt Robinson, was running late because he had an emergency surgery. In a way that made me feel better because it made his birth not so planned. It would happen when it would happen. Just like if I were having him naturally.



 
After taking an ultrasound we discovered our baby was still heads up. So it was certain we were having a C-section. Next John, the anethstegiologist, came in to talk to us about what the going on’s would be for the C-section. I liked him right off the bat. I felt like he was really there for me, and he was going to do everything he could to make sure my wants and needs were on the very top of his priority list. Because the surgery was delayed all my family arrived before I was brought to the OR. I was grateful for this because it took my mind off of everything. I felt very anxious. Not nervous so much… Just anxious. And tired. I don’t know why I was so tired, but I felt like I didn’t want to keep my eyes open. 
Around 10 the nurse came in to tell me Doctor Robinson had called and was on his way and that I would be brought back to the OR in 10 minutes. While we were sitting there waiting someone mentioned it would be cool to get a video of the whole thing. John had already told us that he would be able to take pictures of everything but a video would be really cool as well. So the next time John came in I asked him if it would be possible for one more family member to come in to take the video. He told me it was standard procedure for only one family member to be able to come into the OR. So I asked if one of the nurses would be able to take a video. The next thing I knew John had ordered another pair of scrubs for my mom to come in and take video. This is why I really liked John. I just remember when he told the nurse to go get another set she looked at him like… “This isn’t what we usually do…”. But no questions asked she went and got more scrubs.


Scott got to escort me on my walk to the OR. After arriving I was set up on the table to get my spinal done… It was at this point where I thought to myself. “This is why people don’t like hospitals… All they do is poke and prod you.” I tried not to think of what was actually going on back there. But Scott later told me that watching them put that huge needle in my back was a lot harder then watching them do any of the other stuff. John was very informative during the whole thing. Always making sure I knew exactly what he was doing and exactly what the nurses were doing around me. For that I was very grateful. After everything was ready, put in place and the spinal had fully kicked in we were ready to start. John said, “Surgery started at 10:34 am”. As I lay there all I can remember thinking was how tired I felt. I don’t know if it was the drugs or only getting 4 hours of sleep the night before sharing Scott and I’s last single couple night together. Probably a combination of both. During the surgery Scott continued to stroke my face with his fingers, telling me he loved me. I was so grateful for this because it gave me a lot of comfort. While the doctor was cutting me open they kept commenting on how skinny I was. They told me they weren’t used to doing surgery on such skinny people. Of course it made me feel good. After nine months of pregnancy you definitely aren’t feeling skinny. Scott told them I had run a marathon when I was 5 weeks pregnant and they were very impressed. When it was time to push my midwife, Natalie, began pushing on the upper part of my stomach. It was kind of funny because they would push so hard that I would feel myself moving side from side even though I couldn’t feel the lower half of my body. Right before they pulled the baby out of me they lowered the screen so I could watch. The first part I remember seeing is his body sitting there with his head still inside of me. At this point I felt like it took forever to get the head out but looking back at the video I realized it didn’t take that long. But when they finally did get him out I heard that  baby cry. 
It instantly brought tears to my eyes. And as I looked up I could see that Scott was crying also. Such an incredible moment I will never forget. “10:39 am” the doctor says after he pulled out our baby boy. They only show him to us for a few seconds before taking him over to the nursery to get cleaned up and to make sure his lungs were cleaned out because he had pooped in the amniotic fluid. Scott bent down and kissed me on the forehead and told me he loved me. Next my mom comes over and kisses me on the forehead with tears in her eyes and tells me she loved me as well. I was so glad she was able to be in the OR with us and to experience the special occasion with us. I know that she loved it as well.




  The next comments I hear coming from the doctor and nurses are how big that baby was. After about 15 minutes the nurse from the nursery brings our baby back and tells everyone “9 lbs 3 oz and 20 inches long”. Wow… That IS a big baby! Immediately my baby boy is right next to my face so I can see him. It was really hard and awkward to try to look at him laying flat on my back as they stitched me up. I just remember thinking to myself. “Just let Scott hold and cuddle him. I’d rather he be cuddled and held close by someone then laid next to me where I could hardly touch him.” So I told Scott and my mom to just hold him and not to worry about me. It probably took 20 minutes after that to get me all stitched up. Doctor Robinson kindly told me that he had done 1000 crunches for me and got all my muscles put back exactly where he had found them so that I could start my running ASAP. After getting back to the room it was another 15 minutes before our baby was brought to us. At this time I was able to breastfeed him for the first time. I felt like I had no idea what I was doing. But it’s amazing those baby instincts because he did. No visitors were allowed in the room for an hour after I had returned so that Nicki could monitor myself and the baby to make sure everything was all right. It was nice to be able to spend this time with just me Scott and our new baby.



 Jacob with his grandparents! Somehow we missed a picture with Grandma Bergendorf... :(

 Grandpa Hansen
 Grandma Hansen
 Grandpa Bergendorf
Jacob Reed Bergendorf


Saturday, May 25, 2013

39 Weeks

May 25, 2013, 39 Weeks

One week left! We made it! Scott and I have been very busy these past couple weeks just finishing off those last minute "baby chores" as Scott calls them. One of those baby chores being putting together baby's room. Since we found out I was prego all the baby gear and clothes and everything have just been thrown up into the the spare bedroom in big piles. We decided with two weeks left we better get the room all picked up and organized so that we have somewhere to put him once he comes home.

Before

After


A few other projects we have been working on is getting a a new dresser for the baby. We found the perfect one at a garage sale that needed refinished so Scott took up that project. We ended up putting the new one in our room when it was finished because it was a little bigger then the one we had. And it looked so nice!

 Before
 After

 My project has been re-upholstering a glider chair that we bought off of craigslist. I think I did a pretty good job if I do say so myself :)

Before
 After

 Another one of my projects was making a baby blanket for our new little boy. I love how it turned out! It is so cute. As well as some nursing covers.







What do you do when you are tired of wearing the same old, same old maternity shirts that you've been wearing for the past 3 months and you only have 2 weeks left.... You invade your husbands closet and manipulate his shirts to work as maternity shirts!

One day I just didn't want to wear any of my maternity shirts. So Scott goes over to his closet and jokingly pulls out this shirt and says, "Here, wear this." Well... That got my mind working and with a little manipulation (I did not destroy the shirt in anyway that would make it so Scott couldn't wear it anymore) I was able to make a pretty cute outfit. Amazing what desperation will do for you. :)


 
Before





After

38 Weeks
39 Weeks
 Baby Bergy is still heads up. I decided to schedule the c-section at my 38 week appointment. I figured putting it off was going to do nothing but make it so I couldn't do it on the day I wanted. If he turned we could always cancel it. So we have decided to schedule it for June 1st, 2013. We picked this day because we didn't pick this day if that makes sense. I just had a really hard time "picking" his birthday. I just feel like it's not my choice to choose. So we have decided to schedule it for his due date because that's not a date that I choose. It was a date chosen because of when he was conceived. So it is scheduled. Bright and early 9 am. I told them I wanted it done the earliest they could because I didn't want to be waiting around all day in anticipation waiting.

After I scheduled the appointment I had a really hard time dealing with the idea of a c-section again. I have just been putting it on the back burner for so long because I wanted him to flip that I never really thought about it really happening. Scheduling the actual appointment made it real and I didn't handle it well. After this I decided I could either continue to put it on the back burning and be bitter and upset about the whole thing. Or I could actually face the fact that my baby was breech and try to make the c-section the most positive experience that I could. So I put away my hynobabies books and turned my focus to really coming to peace with having a c-section. I started doing research on "natural" options for c-sections to make me feel like I am apart of the birth. There are actually lots of options. So I made a birth plan and discussed it with my doctor at my 39 week appointment and he said everything looks good so I'm excited about that!

We are now 2 days from the scheduled date. I am still feeling great. Yesterday was my last day at work. It was a bitter/sweet. I really do love my job. I don't know if I'll be returning or not in three months. We are going to play it by ear and see what's happening. I decided I wanted a couple days to myself to just get things done and to relax before my life changes forever. It will be nice to have some downtime!

A few days ago Scott was looking at me while I was getting ready for work and said. "I'm going to miss you having a belly. It's so cute" After I started thinking about it and I feel like I will miss having a belly to. There is something really special about being able to carry a human body inside of you. I kind of think I'm going to feel a little lonely not having my baby in there kicking and moving around all day. I guess it's a good trade off though. I will still be able to have him close to me. He will just be outside my body instead of inside my body.








Saturday, May 4, 2013

36 Weeks

May 4, 2013

I went in for my 36 week appointment very excited because I thought I would be checked to see if I was dilated! Well I wasn't checked for dilation but the babies position was checked. And we discovered by first external evaluation then by ultrasound that our little boy is very comfortably sitting with his butt in my pelvic region and his head toward my chest. AKA breech. Let's just say I didn't take the news well. I was given two options after this point. We could try External Cephalic Version (ECV) which means having a doctor rotate him manually from the outside, and although risks are small, there are still risks for the baby and only a 50/50% chance that the ECV would be successful. Or we could hold out as long as we can in hopes that he will turn on his own, 30% chance, and if he doesn't, have a C-section. I saw my whole vision of what I've always expected childbirth to be like crashing down all around me. From before I could remember I have always wanted to have a natural birth. I don't even remember a single time in my life where I considered having my babies any other way. Everything I had envisioned, especially after getting pregnant and visiting the hospital that we wanted to have our baby, envisioned Scott and I in that hospital room with Scott by my side helping me through contractions then pushing that little baby out and having him placed on my chest. I didn't know what to do....

On a positive note I did get to have another ultrasound and see my little guy, and the ultrasound technician did another 3D!
I don't know if she just felt sorry for me because my baby was breech so she wanted to make me feel better or if they really did have a new probe as she claimed.... But she told me they had a new 3D probe that they wanted to try out. Either way I got another 3D (I think I'm just lucky!) and it was pretty cool :) He is a chubby little thing! And for the first time my whole pregnancy he is measuring exactly as he should be. 36 cm. So sorry all you out there who where planning on him coming two weeks early! Looks like the midwife was right all along! ;) Other then Baby Bergy being breech everything is looking great! He is healthy and strong. And it turns out that body part we've been bouncing around with our fingers for the past couple months is his head..... So.... He'll either come out with a crooked neck or a super strong neck when he's born!

After my very emotional/distraught day when I found out he was breech, I was able to clear my head and consider my options. After looking up the risks of EVC and C-sections, praying, fasting, going to the temple and Scott giving me a blessing, we feel as this point that we do not want to go through with having a EVC. Although the risks are small, they are still there and if something were to go wrong because we did it, I would blame myself for the rest of my life. Instead we have decided to fully leave it up to the Lord and put our faith and trust in him that whatever happens is happening because it is his will. He does know what is best for both me and our baby. And if there is a reason Baby Bergy has stubbornly decided to place himself in the upright position because of health or safety reasons then we will do what we have to, to get him here safely.

37 Weeks
As for me.... I still stubbornly completely plan on him turning and having him naturally. I am continuing with my hypnobabies and preparing myself for a vaginal, natural birth. :) There is no pressure or rush to schedule a c-section and we don't plan on scheduling it anytime soon. I am also feeling pretty great these days! I think the best I've felt my whole pregnancy! The nurse was surprised when I told her that. As of today, 37 Weeks, Baby Bergy is still in heads up position and I'm still doing every method there is to help him turn. Including ice/heat packs, laying with my hips above my head, crawling, hypnosis, sitting on a birthing ball and we will be spending a lot of time in the pool doing head stands. He still has 3 weeks to turn that little body of his.

Saturday, April 27, 2013

Spring brings Camping and Climbing

 Spring has come and I am oh so excited! The warm weather has been so nice and with spring comes spring activities. Although at this time I am slightly limited with the activities I can do... I try not to let it stop me from doing the things I can do. Even if it's a little bit more trouble or uncomfortable. One thing I'm excited for is to get back to running! I see everyone out running these days and it just gives me that itch.
Rock climbing seems to be activity of choice this spring. Scott and I are really excited to have so many of our family members into rock climbing this year so that we have more people to go with.

Scott was able to take a weekend rock climbing trip down to City of Rocks with a few of his friends! He had a lot of fun and was able to get a lot of good climbing in. 






In early spring we got together with Venny and Scott D, Clarissa and Justin and got Scott and Crystal to go climbing at Hysie. I think we have hooked Scott and Crystal, and I'm really excited that they are getting so into it. Once you get the gear it's a nice cheap activity you can do all summer. We have also been able to get Derek, Shelyn and Ondrea into it!







 I even got on the rock for a climb! See... You can still go climbing at 7 in a half month pregnant. :) It was a very easy climb and I stopped before it got to any of the technical stuff.



Everyone also convinced me to go camping :) I told them I would go anywhere they wanted as long as they brought my bean bag... So what did they do... They stuffed that bean bag in the back of Scott's subaru (it took up 3/4 of the whole back seat with the front seats scooted forward) and we went camping with Scott and Crystal! It was a lot of fun! We went rock climbing again and I was surprised by how different I felt from going just 3 weeks before... It was night and day. There was no way I was going to get on any rock. So alas... The rock climbing will have to wait until this baby is out of me!




  Geocaching

It's not rock climbing if you don't go get frozen yogurt afterwards. :)


I am looking forward to a really fun summer filled with rock climbing and camping :)


Saturday, April 20, 2013

Clarissa and Justin's Wedding

I know these are a little bit out of order.... my focus has been staying up to date with baby updates as much as possible. Everything else has kind of been neglected.... But in April we were able to celebrate Clarissa and Justin's wedding. It was a beautiful ceremony and I have to say that all the decorations at the reception turned out perfect! Just what she wanted. I thought everything looked so great! And she was beautiful!
I had a really hard time finding a maternity dress so I decided to make my own. Maybe just a little ambitious 2 weeks away from the wedding! I had never made clothing of any kind by myself... But I found a pattern I liked and just figured it out. For how many times I had to take out stitches and redo things I probably ended up making the dress 8 times! But it finally all came together and I am proud of my work. As long as nobody looks to closely. :) I do think it made me look a little bigger then I was.... But oh well. :)

I am so proud of Clarissa for making the decision to get sealed in the temple. It will only bring joy and happiness to her life. It was also fun to be able to help with the wedding as much as a 7 month prego women could help. I'm glad I was able to be apart of it all!

Congrats to Clarissa and Justin!